This past New Year’s Eve, I decided to take my last bong rip and kiss weed goodbye from my everyday life. I’ve never been a super heavy stoner, but over the past few years my usage slowly crept up on me. At first I would just use it once in a while for fun, then I realized how helpful it was for relaxation, so I started using it before bed to help me sleep better. One thing lead to the next, and then it was after every big meal to settle my stomach, or sometimes before long walks to better relax, space out, and tune into nature, having fun with a wake ‘n bake on a weekend, or before a painting session to help me let loose and let creative ideas flow.
Over the years, the more I used it, the more the fun & creativity aspect wore off, and it became more of a crutch to lean on. I no longer thought I could come up with creative ideas on my own, I’d smoke first and THEN wait for ideas to flow. But after a while that stopped too. I mostly just became lazy, and even though I would get good ideas, I lacked the energy and motivation to execute them.
The past year I’ve had a love/hate relationship with weed because although I realize it is an amazing herb that can help a lot of people, I don’t believe it has the same effects on everyone, every time. You really have to use your own discernment and decide if it is something that jives with you or not.
I believe in balance, and weed is no exception. Egyptians, Native Americans and Shamans may have used weed, but it was with a great respect, as a tool to enhance the mind/body/spirit, during ceremonies and spirit walks. I noticed I was no longer respecting the plant and all of it’s power, but instead just abusing it. I was ready to stop for good.
It’s been 15 days since my last smoke and I am really proud of myself. I have so much more energy and motivation, despite lack of sleep. I’ve been a lot more productive and optimistic, and I’ve been feeling positive emotions I haven’t felt in a really long time. It’s weird because I actually do love and respect marijuana, I just don’t have a place for it in my every day life at this time. Too bad because it’s finally becoming legal everywhere in the USA, haha, but I don’t really care. I’m having a lot of fun doing dream work too, when before when I would smoke I wouldn’t have any dreams at all! I can’t wait to have another out of body experience, I feel like weed may have been hindering my ability to break through again. We shall see!
In any event, I don’t judge anyone who smokes because I believe choosing marijuana for healing over some man made pharmaceutical crap is always going to be a better choice. However, comma, (as my dear Uncle Steven would say), just because it comes from the Earth does not mean it is automatically good for you. There are plenty of deadly plants out there that aren’t meant for human consumption. Mary Jane can help alleviate a lot of issues, but don’t give your power away to it.